I dont have anywhere else to talk about this...
In Australia I managed to get over my ex boyfriend but since I have been back in my hometown I have realised I am not completely over him. As I mentioned before I saw him last week and was struck by how much it hurt to see him.
But now I have actually spent time with him today and my head and heart are all over the place. He was emailing me last night and he was asking me round. Thankfully I didnt go then. Today he apologised but asked to see me. Hes been calling me darling and my lovely; I hate that him calling me nice things makes me smile. I hate that my heart leaps everytime I see I have a message from him.
Today was lovely too. He was different then he used to be. We went to the park, sat on a blanket and just chatted. He was never on his phone. He paid attention to me. We laughed and had a banter and it was great. Went back and watched a film too. Nothing happened between us which Im glad of. And I like that we can be friends. But now Im reminded of the fact I still have feelings for him and I dont know what to do.
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